Please promise me something. Please promise me that you will remember that you made the right choice.
Yes, you may question this every now and then, but whether you go back to be with them or not, you made the right decision in that moment.
As humans, we make crazy decisions every day, some are led by our dreams and ambitions, others are led by our hearts. You were never in the wrong to follow yours when you started or when it ended. You didn’t calculate how things would go, or even how you would feel when you were left here, broken. But the truth is, without making this decision, you would have ended up more shattered than you were that night. You were only protecting your heart. You didn’t make the wrong decision.
When you are about to relapse, remember this. Yes, maybe your thoughts still wander to them in the moments before you sleep, but it isn’t as frequent as they used to be. Everything doesn’t ALWAYS remind you of them. You are just traveling the broken, rugged path to find yourself again, and that’s okay. That’s what heartbreak is about. You aren’t 100 percent yourself, or 100 percent okay, but that’s alright, as long as you keep fighting to get there.You still have hope.
Heartbreak is something that shatters us in an instant, and everyone has to take different amounts of time to put themselves back together. And while we may get most of the pieces glued back where they are supposed to be, we will always be missing a piece, a place where we will always remember how they made us smile. Don’t try to find that last piece, you never will. They touched your heart, and that isn’t something you can delete. It’s kind of funny, heartbreak has a sense of camaraderie. It is something that makes you feel so alone, but when you look at the bigger picture, everyone either has, or will experience heartbreak at some point in their life. You are never alone.
So when you are about to relapse, remember this. Take all the time you need. Lean on the people who love you. Make new decisions, make new mistakes. You were not wrong. You will never be wrong if you make a decision that is healthy for yourself. Self-love, because you are amazing in so many ways. Life will keep moving, so spend time to see the beauty again and discover yourself again.