It’s the middle of the semester. Everyone is tired, stressed, and tensions are running high. Even roommates are starting to get on each others nerves. Needless to say, everyone is ready to be done with the semester and we are only halfway there. We’re ready to go home, ready to sleep, and most importantly, ready to do anything but study.
In my own life, along with the usual stress, I had caffeine last week that flared my health issues and one of my favorite people at Loyola left to pursue a new job. This week was rough to say the least. As I write this, I’m currently on a train home for spring break, but my body still hasn’t realized that it can breathe yet.
Maybe it’s because today didn’t go as planned. Maybe it’s because I don’t feel great. Part of it has to be that I want to pretend like this week didn’t happen.
While I know all of our circumstances aren’t the same, I know many of you feel the same. This week I actually uttered the following phrases:
“Let’s quit school. I can live in my parents basement.”
“Group nap, anyone?”
“I’ve only eaten applesauce today…”
And you know what I really want to do? Curl up in my bed and hide from the world for a few days. What will I probably do? Go out with my camera, shoot photos in some of my favorite places, and blog.
Why? Because I know myself. I know that if I curl up in my bed, I won’t make myself feel any better. In fact, if the past can tell the future, it will make me feel way worse. I know that getting myself back into the swing of things is better for myself.
But I don’t know what’s best for you-do you need to curl up in your bed? Maybe. I really can’t be sure, only you know.
Either way I’m here to say that no matter how bleak your week gets, things will get better. It’s okay to be an emotional mess because your Orgo exam didn’t go as planned. It’s okay to take time for yourself, and it’s okay to not be okay all the time.
You are perfect the way you are. Take a deep breath and do something that will make you happy. Take baby steps to get back to where you were before exams, a breakup, or even the stomach flu.
It’s easy to let problems take over your mind instead of seeing all the good things that happened throughout your week. Yes, this week I had 4 midterms. My boss had her last day at work. I felt super sick all week.
But those things all cloud out the great stuff that happened: I turned 20. I spent time with my best friends. I was surrounded by people I love all week. I got to sing a little bit. And now I’m on a DOUBLE DECKER train.
I know this was kind of a long rant, but sometimes you need that, you know?
Hang in there, loves. You will be okay.